Hey people, I am writing this post mainly to recollect an incident which took place outside along Jln Pahang, Kuala Lumpur yesterday morning. I was buying a few medical books at Kamal Bookstore and that was when the tagedy struck.
After buying the books, my family and I walked to our car and was about to leave. I was about to get into the car when suddenly I felt someone grab my neck from behind. I was really taken by surprise as everyone else was standing near me. I turned to look at who had grabbed my neck and I saw two swines going on the motorbike. Then it hit me. Those fellas were after my gold CROSS, the one i always wear around my neck. God must have been so faithful to me because he slipped and didnt get hold of the chain.
We were standng there for a few more minutes trying to digest all that took place. I was really scared and immediately, i took off the chain and kept it elsewhere. No more in my entire life, I am ever going to wear anything gold and walk around the roads, be it during the DAY or at night.
Since then on, I have developed a phobia within me towards the touch of people especially in crowdy places. This incident is like a wake-up call to me. THERE IS NO MORE SAFE PLACE IN THIS WORLD.
So, to those who are reading this, beware. Especially of pillion riders on motorbikes.
Touchaphobic,
Prissy.
Sunday, January 31, 2010
Monday, January 25, 2010
And so it goes......
Yaaay me!! With SOCA now over, the exam has officiallly come to the end with the term. Im just so happy coz i made it through SOCA with a BANG!!
I wasnt able to come online these few days after extensive preparation for SOCA. Yesterday, i seemed just so calm when i went for the exam.
In the waiting room, everyone seems so busy flipping through their notes and I was there happily making jokes to calm a few of my friends down. But when it was my turn to go into the lab, my heart started beating a little faster. I went in after my name was called and I was already thinking about the cases that I was goin to get.
I picked my number and it was LUCKY NO #3. My case - SUBACUTE BACTERIAL ENDOCARDITIS. For those who are'nt in the medical line, that case is about bacterial causing infections in the heart valves. I was dead. Suddenly, the whole case and the points went missing from my memory bank. I sat there like 2 mins trying to think about what i was suppose to write on the flip charts. Then, it all came back to me.
Thank God! I wrote everything I could think of and when i walked into the examintation room, I was nervous.. Then I saw that I was going to get DR Chevy and Dr Ismet as my examiners. I didnt have any SOCA experiences with them before, so I was kind of anxious. When I went into the room, he buzzer sounded. My 20 mins to present my case has begin. I went on like a train about the whole case. when i was done,i was totally out of my breath.
I praise and give thanks to God, for giving me a 90% for that case. I was so happy with myself and I thanked both the doctors and left the room to begin the celebrations with my other buddies who made it as well..
And so it goes, exam is now over. Im a free bird till next sem. Hopefully I would have half as much fun as i had this sem, or maybe even more.. I am so excited to see where this goes. And the most important of all, this saturday... MALAYSIA, here i come!!!!
I wasnt able to come online these few days after extensive preparation for SOCA. Yesterday, i seemed just so calm when i went for the exam.
In the waiting room, everyone seems so busy flipping through their notes and I was there happily making jokes to calm a few of my friends down. But when it was my turn to go into the lab, my heart started beating a little faster. I went in after my name was called and I was already thinking about the cases that I was goin to get.
I picked my number and it was LUCKY NO #3. My case - SUBACUTE BACTERIAL ENDOCARDITIS. For those who are'nt in the medical line, that case is about bacterial causing infections in the heart valves. I was dead. Suddenly, the whole case and the points went missing from my memory bank. I sat there like 2 mins trying to think about what i was suppose to write on the flip charts. Then, it all came back to me.
Thank God! I wrote everything I could think of and when i walked into the examintation room, I was nervous.. Then I saw that I was going to get DR Chevy and Dr Ismet as my examiners. I didnt have any SOCA experiences with them before, so I was kind of anxious. When I went into the room, he buzzer sounded. My 20 mins to present my case has begin. I went on like a train about the whole case. when i was done,i was totally out of my breath.
I praise and give thanks to God, for giving me a 90% for that case. I was so happy with myself and I thanked both the doctors and left the room to begin the celebrations with my other buddies who made it as well..
And so it goes, exam is now over. Im a free bird till next sem. Hopefully I would have half as much fun as i had this sem, or maybe even more.. I am so excited to see where this goes. And the most important of all, this saturday... MALAYSIA, here i come!!!!
Monday, January 18, 2010
The OSCE Massacre
Yesterday was the exam we, batch 2009, had been dreading for. Our first time experiencing the OSCE examination. It's actually a clinical skills examination and since it was our first time, we had no idea how it was going to be like or what to anticipate.
As usual, I woke up at 4 a.m and started last - minute memorising all the skills, from 1 to 8. Exam was scheduled to start at 7 a.m. So I had 3 hours to make sure I memorised everything word - to - word.
I hurried to the faculty with my friends. We were so blurr when we reached to faculty as we were not told where were we suppose to go and wait and when is our turn to be examined (or to be tortured).
I read the name list and sadly I was in the 3rd group.. Good news, I still had ample time to refresh my memory. Bad news, I had to be stuck waiting there another 3 hours.
When it was my group to enter the clinical skills lab, we were all so anxious. My first station was the 'Resting' station. What the hell! Do i need anymore resting after resting for more than 3 hours?? My second station, was the history taking station. I guess Dr. Amelia was so nice and resposive. She gave me a good start. In 90 minutes, I had finished all the stations from physical examination, checking vital signs, measuring blood pressure, looking through the microscope, taking universal precautions, administering drugs, and writing an informed consent form.
I was dead tired by the time I finished all the stations. My head was already throbbing madly. I was already thinking about a sleeping spree. And guess what, I came back to my room and slept for more than 15 hours. I woke up today, refreshed and ready to start a new day. SOCA killer is next Monday. Another 8 cases to drown upon me. Hopefully I survive this week.
Life of a medical student, Prissy
As usual, I woke up at 4 a.m and started last - minute memorising all the skills, from 1 to 8. Exam was scheduled to start at 7 a.m. So I had 3 hours to make sure I memorised everything word - to - word.
I hurried to the faculty with my friends. We were so blurr when we reached to faculty as we were not told where were we suppose to go and wait and when is our turn to be examined (or to be tortured).
I read the name list and sadly I was in the 3rd group.. Good news, I still had ample time to refresh my memory. Bad news, I had to be stuck waiting there another 3 hours.
When it was my group to enter the clinical skills lab, we were all so anxious. My first station was the 'Resting' station. What the hell! Do i need anymore resting after resting for more than 3 hours?? My second station, was the history taking station. I guess Dr. Amelia was so nice and resposive. She gave me a good start. In 90 minutes, I had finished all the stations from physical examination, checking vital signs, measuring blood pressure, looking through the microscope, taking universal precautions, administering drugs, and writing an informed consent form.
I was dead tired by the time I finished all the stations. My head was already throbbing madly. I was already thinking about a sleeping spree. And guess what, I came back to my room and slept for more than 15 hours. I woke up today, refreshed and ready to start a new day. SOCA killer is next Monday. Another 8 cases to drown upon me. Hopefully I survive this week.
Life of a medical student, Prissy
Thursday, January 14, 2010
Countdown
The countdown has officially begun. I will be home in another 15 more days. In an hour's time, I will be sitting for the COMPREHENSIVE exam. I am still sitting in my room and trying to memorise some last-minute stuffs...
Last night I had an argument with my baby. He seems so stressed with his exams. We are both rowing the same boat. The current seems too strong at times and that's when the crash happens. However, the waves subsides in less that haf an hour. Whew.... !
Tonight seems like a busy night for me. CC meeting, room management and of course, i will have to start preparing for the OSCE EXAMINATION on Monday. Don's ask me what the hell is that.. All i know, it has everything to do with clinical skills.
Hopefully i will pass every exams with flying colours. (am i asking too much?)
And hopefully God will be kind enough to exclude me from any REMEDIALS this year. I gotta get ready for the exams now. And hopefully i will bring some good news the next time I write in my blog.
Till then, babez.. Prissy
Last night I had an argument with my baby. He seems so stressed with his exams. We are both rowing the same boat. The current seems too strong at times and that's when the crash happens. However, the waves subsides in less that haf an hour. Whew.... !
Tonight seems like a busy night for me. CC meeting, room management and of course, i will have to start preparing for the OSCE EXAMINATION on Monday. Don's ask me what the hell is that.. All i know, it has everything to do with clinical skills.
Hopefully i will pass every exams with flying colours. (am i asking too much?)
And hopefully God will be kind enough to exclude me from any REMEDIALS this year. I gotta get ready for the exams now. And hopefully i will bring some good news the next time I write in my blog.
Till then, babez.. Prissy
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Day 4 - FBS 4
Today's exam was unually stressful. I guess everyone must have been feeling the pressure after yesterday's screw - up. Haha.. I slept around 3 something early this morning trying to digest all the pharmacology facts at once. I guess most of my efforts did pay off in the end.
This morning, i woke up at 6 am after snoozing my alarm for more than 3 times. I was practically glued to the bed and my eyes refused to open.
The three and a half hour of exam was so weird to me. I finished the paper in less than 2 hours. Didn't know what to do after that. I was almost going to doze off when suddenly Siva's handphone started to ring. That idiot must have forgotten to put it on silent. The doctor came and gave him a 'shhhh!!' and then she went back to her work.
I am back in my room now. I guess today might be a more relaxing day as I have the public health paper tomorrow. Now, I want to sleep and hopefully no one disturbs me until my eyes open by themselves.
I gotta go now. Adios!
Prissy
This morning, i woke up at 6 am after snoozing my alarm for more than 3 times. I was practically glued to the bed and my eyes refused to open.
The three and a half hour of exam was so weird to me. I finished the paper in less than 2 hours. Didn't know what to do after that. I was almost going to doze off when suddenly Siva's handphone started to ring. That idiot must have forgotten to put it on silent. The doctor came and gave him a 'shhhh!!' and then she went back to her work.
I am back in my room now. I guess today might be a more relaxing day as I have the public health paper tomorrow. Now, I want to sleep and hopefully no one disturbs me until my eyes open by themselves.
I gotta go now. Adios!
Prissy
Monday, January 11, 2010
Day 3 - Betrayal
I have only one word for today's exam.... 'HELL'
1. Microbiology - u betrayed me.. i was counting on u..
2. Parasitology - arrrgggh.. i hate you so!
3. Clinical Pathology - i have no words to decribe u.. u have betrayed me right from the beginning.
4. Neoplasm - u officially opened a door for me towards the 'REMEDIAL' papers.. thnx
Tomorrow, I will be sitting for MDE FBS 4 and hopefully I would not be so disappointed again.
Prissy
1. Microbiology - u betrayed me.. i was counting on u..
2. Parasitology - arrrgggh.. i hate you so!
3. Clinical Pathology - i have no words to decribe u.. u have betrayed me right from the beginning.
4. Neoplasm - u officially opened a door for me towards the 'REMEDIAL' papers.. thnx
Tomorrow, I will be sitting for MDE FBS 4 and hopefully I would not be so disappointed again.
Prissy
Sunday, January 10, 2010
Day 2 - I am a Malaysian
I just came back to my room after screwing my brains during the 130 mins paper of bioethics and kewarganegaraan. Omg, how could they do this to us? We are Malaysians, born to be bred in Malaysia.. So why the hell must we learn to love this screwed up country? Haha, i cannot believe I actually praised this country in most of my points (not like there were anything else I could write..)
Ok nevermind. I cannot start licking my wounds on how badly i screwed the paper now. I have a 4-hour MDE paper tomorrow for FBS 3. That's more important right now. I cannot afford to fall asleep right now even though my brain is telling me to shut down for a while. I just don't have the time. Sorry, brain, but you still have lots of work to do!
So, let's get down to business, folks..
Till then, Prissy
Ok nevermind. I cannot start licking my wounds on how badly i screwed the paper now. I have a 4-hour MDE paper tomorrow for FBS 3. That's more important right now. I cannot afford to fall asleep right now even though my brain is telling me to shut down for a while. I just don't have the time. Sorry, brain, but you still have lots of work to do!
So, let's get down to business, folks..
Till then, Prissy
Saturday, January 9, 2010
Another page out of my book..
I don't seem to think that people truly understand what are feelings anymore. Nobody seems to care about anyone else. Everyone is just running their own race. Resistant to the world around them.
It's a Sunday morning. I am about to go to church now. Tomorrow is going to be Day 2of the MEGA BIG SEMESTER EXAM. Last night was pretty hectic. I had never known that someone was capable of absorbing so much in so little time.
And I also realised that there are few people here who doesn't seem to like me. Typical! So what? I don't care about them. They are not giving me food to eat or paying for my expenses. I am who I am and there is nothing anyone can change about that. So, that's that!
So, as I begin my day, I say this ltlle prayer... 'Dear Heavenly Father, please make me a more understanding person to the people around me and hopefully the bioethics paper would not betray me tomorrow... Amen.'
Till then folks,
Prissy
It's a Sunday morning. I am about to go to church now. Tomorrow is going to be Day 2of the MEGA BIG SEMESTER EXAM. Last night was pretty hectic. I had never known that someone was capable of absorbing so much in so little time.
And I also realised that there are few people here who doesn't seem to like me. Typical! So what? I don't care about them. They are not giving me food to eat or paying for my expenses. I am who I am and there is nothing anyone can change about that. So, that's that!
So, as I begin my day, I say this ltlle prayer... 'Dear Heavenly Father, please make me a more understanding person to the people around me and hopefully the bioethics paper would not betray me tomorrow... Amen.'
Till then folks,
Prissy
Friday, January 8, 2010
Day 1 - Damn
I can hardly open my eyes. The sun is shining so brightly through the windows. It's a Saturday. A lovely Saturday. And guess what, it's also Day 1 of the MEGA BIG SEMESTER EXAM. Damn.... Today I will be sitting for one of the papers that I am least prepared for. BAHASA INDONESIA. I only knew of the existence of the paper two days ago and I have no idea what to study for it. Hopefully, the little Bahasa Indonesia I speak can help me out somehow. So, before I get out of my bed, I said a little prayer. Dear God, you really gotta help me out here!
Till then, folks..
Prissy
Till then, folks..
Prissy
Thursday, January 7, 2010
All Stressed Up
It is a wonderful morning outside my room window and seems like Bandung might be heading for a downpour later today. Everything seems pretty normal outside the Bale Padjadjaran. It would have been just like any fine day. Not until you step into the hostel.
It's three days away from the MEGA BIG SEMESTER EXAM. Damn, exams sound so evil.. Everyone is scurrying around in their corners with their heads burried in tons of medical books. The sight of that itself can cause ur head to explode.
Room #30. That has been my home for the past 6 months now. Here is where I can bury myself in my own world without worrying too much about the world around me. There is just so much to study and so little time. All that studying is causing my face to turn into Pimple Town. Haha...
So, that's where I need to do a little blogging just to clear my mind off things. Pharmacology has officially turned me into a rambling night freak especially when I cannot remember all those drugs people take to sleep at night. Arrrggghh... this is insane. If I make it pass this week still in a sane condition, I will throw myself a party at the end of the month. Hopefully, Yoges and Gurwin can say the same thing as well. They are two of my best friends in UNPAD, and we have been standing by each other through everything for the past 6 months. Life has been pretty hard these days.
Before I forget, I have more books to attend to later today. And hopefully I can clear up everything before I call it a day tonight. I just pray that all my efforts will pay off at the end of the sememster as I'm hoping to ace SOCA this time with a A++ (the last time ended up with a pathethic B+). God, you really need to help me out here!!
Prissy
It's three days away from the MEGA BIG SEMESTER EXAM. Damn, exams sound so evil.. Everyone is scurrying around in their corners with their heads burried in tons of medical books. The sight of that itself can cause ur head to explode.
Room #30. That has been my home for the past 6 months now. Here is where I can bury myself in my own world without worrying too much about the world around me. There is just so much to study and so little time. All that studying is causing my face to turn into Pimple Town. Haha...
So, that's where I need to do a little blogging just to clear my mind off things. Pharmacology has officially turned me into a rambling night freak especially when I cannot remember all those drugs people take to sleep at night. Arrrggghh... this is insane. If I make it pass this week still in a sane condition, I will throw myself a party at the end of the month. Hopefully, Yoges and Gurwin can say the same thing as well. They are two of my best friends in UNPAD, and we have been standing by each other through everything for the past 6 months. Life has been pretty hard these days.
Before I forget, I have more books to attend to later today. And hopefully I can clear up everything before I call it a day tonight. I just pray that all my efforts will pay off at the end of the sememster as I'm hoping to ace SOCA this time with a A++ (the last time ended up with a pathethic B+). God, you really need to help me out here!!
Prissy
Mission 2010
Well, I hope by the end of this year, i can look back and ponder on the amazing journey I took this year. I would sit back and as I sip a cup of hot chocolate, I will urge myself to create another list like this one (but only much better). So before I start crapping now itself, lets start gearing up for a brand new year as I have listed down all the things I am intending to accomplish by the end of 2010.
1. I need to talk less and work more..
2. Stop day dreaming all the time
3. I need to become a better girlfriend to my one and only.. (baby, u gotta help me out!)
4. I need to learn to speak up for myself and not through other people.
5. I need to stop crapping all the time..
6. I need to stop being sarcastic to people i dont like even though they can be damn annoying all the time
7. I need to stop hunching my shoulders.
8. I need to learn a new skill.. hopefully something forbidden
9. I need to stop planning.. Planning never works.. Spontaneous does.
10. I need to learn how to bring down my enemies without them realising it.
11. I need to stop sleeping all the time...
12. I need to get 3.5 CGPA to get an IPHONE from appa
13. I need to stop making lame excuses.. (i need to get creative!)
14. I HAVE to stop sleeping with facebook!
15. I have to learn how to play something else other than DOTA and counter strike.... (this is getting boring!)
16. I have to stop buying things that i dont need.... (i am a SHOPAHOLIC)
17. I have to reduce my weight by 5 kg by the end of this year...
18. I have to stop changing my hair style all the time... ( i am happy the way i am and i know it)
19. I have to be a better friend to all my friends who made my birthday a blast in 2009
20. I need to get a BEST FRIEND as soon as possible...
21. I need to improve my music skills.
22. I need to understand my goals are not to make my blog look impressive but to be accomplished.
23. I need to stop taking things for granted.
24. I need to STUDY smart and beat the fast track students in medical school.
25. I need to be a better person, physically, spiritually, mentally and emotionally... (damn, i sound like an priest)...
Issues of the heart
There were times when i pondered on those times in my life when you weren't there beside me. I would close my eyes and cry myself to sleep. Those were the moments i had to endure in the past without ur presence. Times have changed. Ur with me now. I can never tell how much u actually mean to me. Pleasures of love last a moment but pains of love last a lifetime. I would stand by you through every step you take in life. I would walk with you through the fire of life and through the thorns of heartaches and sufferings. You are a part of me. There is only one happiness in my life. One happiness which can keep me satisfied for a lifetime that is to be loved by you and to love you.
The best and most beautiful things in life can never be seen or even touched. They must be felt with the heart. I remember the first time i felt that euphoric feeling with you. It was so many years back. And we were an item then. We were like inseparable. And you were the only one who seemed to understand me despite how annoying i used to be. You were always there for me. You never abandoned me for any pleasure of life. You were my rock then.. and now.
What I needed most was to love and to be loved, eager to be caught. Happily I wrapped those painful bonds around me; and sure enough, I would be lashed with the red-hot pokers or jealousy, by suspicions and fear, by burst of anger and quarrels. I remember all those painful nights i went to bed thinking about all those word we used to lash out against each other. I never thought our relationship would survive at one point. But we were still madly in love with each other. And love conquered all, my dear.
Women wish to be loved not because they are pretty, or good, or well bred, or graceful, or intelligent, but because they are themselves. i felt the same way when i was with you. I could walk around even in my most horrible clothes and not comb my hair. But beauty was never the reason you loved me. And that was what drew me closer to you. You loved me despite how horrible i looked or how badly i stank. And i can never repay you for all the care you showered upon me. You took care of me when i were sick. You stayed up all night just to make sure i got back to my room safely. You were everything a girl can ever ask for. And im so lucky that i have you in my life. Because you're mine and mine alone. A gift i can never share with another.
You come to love someone by not finding the perfect person but by finding an imperfect person and looking at them perfectly. Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are.
Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. You and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two.
I love you and that's the only thing that matters to me. Loving you is the enchanted dawn of my heart. Now and forever more.
The best and most beautiful things in life can never be seen or even touched. They must be felt with the heart. I remember the first time i felt that euphoric feeling with you. It was so many years back. And we were an item then. We were like inseparable. And you were the only one who seemed to understand me despite how annoying i used to be. You were always there for me. You never abandoned me for any pleasure of life. You were my rock then.. and now.
What I needed most was to love and to be loved, eager to be caught. Happily I wrapped those painful bonds around me; and sure enough, I would be lashed with the red-hot pokers or jealousy, by suspicions and fear, by burst of anger and quarrels. I remember all those painful nights i went to bed thinking about all those word we used to lash out against each other. I never thought our relationship would survive at one point. But we were still madly in love with each other. And love conquered all, my dear.
Women wish to be loved not because they are pretty, or good, or well bred, or graceful, or intelligent, but because they are themselves. i felt the same way when i was with you. I could walk around even in my most horrible clothes and not comb my hair. But beauty was never the reason you loved me. And that was what drew me closer to you. You loved me despite how horrible i looked or how badly i stank. And i can never repay you for all the care you showered upon me. You took care of me when i were sick. You stayed up all night just to make sure i got back to my room safely. You were everything a girl can ever ask for. And im so lucky that i have you in my life. Because you're mine and mine alone. A gift i can never share with another.
You come to love someone by not finding the perfect person but by finding an imperfect person and looking at them perfectly. Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are.
Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. You and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two.
I love you and that's the only thing that matters to me. Loving you is the enchanted dawn of my heart. Now and forever more.
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